Confessions

To quote Usher, these are my confessions:

·      I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder in 2003.

·      I was on Lexapro for 13 years before it finally dropped me.

·      I am currently on Viibryd for both GAD and Depression.

·      Turns out I had Depression all along, but the voices of GAD were louder.

·      My Anxiety is a noun, not a verb.

·      Anxiety is a living, breathing part of me.

·      I feel sorry for those who love me, because they didn’t sign up for this.

·      I fear for my kids because they see me crack.

·      I apologize, but seeing your mom crying in the fetal position in her bed is scar-worthy material.

·      I will pay for their therapy.

·      I currently exhaust my HSA to pay for my own therapy.

·      I inappropriately think of my therapist as my friend because she understands.

·      I had a panic attack in therapy today.

·      It is the first time anyone has seen it besides my husband (and random people outside of my car window).

·      It was embarrassing.

·      I took Valium.

·      Actually 2.

·      Then I went back to work because I am “functional.”

·      Being able to “function” feels like a lie 99% of the time.

·      I hate having all the feelings.

·      I hate that- for me- Emotional Thought > Rational Thought.

·      Sharing my story is easy.

·      Living in my brain is hard.